Conversations with her

“What is bothering you so much?”

“You. Your mere existence. The fact that you exist like this shining bright orb in the sky but only a billion miles away. Light years ahead of me and away from me. Eternally moving. Forever graciously. And the only way I could reach you is to lose all that matters and move ahead in light speed. But that won’t be enough. May be I should move faster than light and turn around time and find a better spot in the time-space where we would at least be in proximity of physical reach within our lifetime. Else I could also look for leakage in the continuum and try and slip into some dark spot to find you in some other plane of existence beyond our own.”

“But why!?”

“How would I know? It’s gravity. Maybe. Mere laws of attraction, trying to pull the whole world together. An invisible cloak stitching us into this fabric of existence. Keeping us together and yet far apart. Why would the apple fall from the tree? And not drift and fall far away? I’m no Newton but I’ll like to find out why. Just so that I could sleep in peace and for the love of humanity and bitter curiosity.”

“What’s in it for me then?”

“Pain. As a reminder of your mortal existence. The type you get used to and miss it when it’s gone. The type that seems tough at first and turns pleasurable. Pleasure. If you let it in. And more of it, if you let it devour you. May be a mix of both. But that’s life isn’t it. May be we can experience it in a larger scale. If at all I survive your scorching temperatures and manage to revolve around you, so I could sustain. Else I’m gonna crash and sink and dissolve into the ether.”

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